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Deserve is a key term in this context, and I’d like to dig deeper into it. For myself and anyone else who may be able to relate.
This is the tone that my passive suicidal thoughts assume for me – not that I want to die, but that I deserve to die. It’s not so much that there’s something wrong with the world as there is something wrong with myself. It’s not that I don’t have support; it’s just that I’m not enough for the individuals who do.
It makes me want to collapse into myself and vanish. It makes me think of my body melting into the ground. It makes me daydream about automobile wrecks and plane crashes. I was traveling yesterday and was having a lot of trouble with these thoughts.
While I’m trying to keep my thoughts in check and not get too far into them, I’m also attempting to recall what might have triggered this. I’m notoriously lousy at recognizing emotions and finding triggers, but there has to be something that switches this switch. Also, you must try to play this Do I Deserve To Live Quiz.
Maybe it’s because I feel like I’m disappointing everyone.
Do I Deserve To Live Quiz
“I don’t deserve to live” sometimes means I feel terrible that people care about me, and I’m convinced I’m not keeping my half of the agreement. Every unanswered text and email hurts me physically. I just know that I’m not doing enough for the folks I care about. I’m a lousy sister, partner, daughter, and friend. I’m not doing enough, and this, strangely, causes me to isolate myself. People do not deserve to be troubled by my presence. It will only serve to irritate them further.
Perhaps it’s because I made a mistake.
“I don’t deserve to live” can also signify that I’m putting myself to unattainable standards and believe that if I can’t reach them, I might as well die. The grace I extend to others does not extend to myself since I should know better and be better.
Perhaps it’s because I’m ashamed of my own needs.
This week, I haven’t been taking excellent care of myself. The gravity of this feeling can sometimes be boiled down to this. “I don’t deserve to live” can also signify that I don’t want to confront the fact that I have needs. I don’t want to slow down or accept that I need to take a break. I despise the humanity of burnout and exhaustion. I can’t let myself off the hook, so my mind convinces me I’ve already failed. It’s the stereotypical form of self-hatred that coexists with self-inflation. I think I’m worthless, but I have such lofty goals for myself. I know I’m better than this, but I’m also wondering, “Who the heck do I think I am?”
That’s why everything feels so out of place. “I’m angry with myself” becomes “I want to murder myself.” “I’m disappointed” becomes “I deserve to die.” This brain of mine doesn’t have much wiggle room. Everyday disappointments and tensions are exaggerated, and my mind convinces itself that it needs to self-destruct at the least indication of weakness.
About the quiz
There are a few things I want you to know if you can relate to this. Because, while I may have doubts about my own existence, I have no doubts about yours. Today I awoke feeling a little better, and here are some truths I know to be true:
Because you are here, I know you deserve to live.
I know you deserve to live since you’re doing your best.
I believe you deserve to live because your messes are what make you human, and no one (positive) in your life expects perfection except you.
I know you deserve to live because it’s better to be flawed and living than broken and still alive. This sensation will pass, as it always does, and each moment you get through demonstrates that the part of you that wants to live is greater than the bully in you that wants you to die. You do not need to earn the right to be here. All you can do is live your life to the fullest. If the messages you’ve absorbed have made you believe that it’s better to die than to be flawed, please know that the messages are incorrect. You are not mistaken. What you were taught about worth and productivity — the shame that sits within you — is what is incorrect. That is what must perish.
You can get through difficult times like this. You can re-establish yourself. Despite what we may think, you deserve to live because your imperfect presence is so valuable. Regardless of how much strain we put on ourselves.
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